(Appropriately addressed to the Purifier who came to see me, don’t have notes in front of me)
“And they sung a new song, saying, Thou art worthy to take the book, and to open the seals thereof: for thou wast slain, and hast redeemed thyself to Chardun by thine own blood, and sacrifice.” -Verse 83:265 of the Iron Litany, a canon of the Church of Chardun.
“Have not I commanded thee? Be strong; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for Chardun, thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest, hence it is thou who should command fear.”
- Verse 63:11 of the Iron Litany, a canon of the Church of Chardun.
" For whether we live, we live unto Chardun; and whether we die, we die unto Chardun: whether we live therefore, or die, we are Chardun’s"
-Verse 18:12 of the Iron Litany, a canon of the Church of Chardun.
" – And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear Him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell, for He is our Master, and we his Servants, and so it shall be."
-Verse 3:676 of the Iron Litany, a canon of the Church of Chardun.
It is to these passages within the Great Book that I am, as of late, continually drawn. Why have I let fear control me? What is there to fear in the grand scheme of things? I have shamed myself in an attempt to cercumvent shame. An illogical frame of mind that, were I back among my fellow monks, would have ended in punishment.
Instead now I have found myself in another situation I don’t see a easy answer to. I am about to have my service in the military extended, but I must seek atonement. If I had done so when it first was needed, I certainly wouldn’t find myself in my current situation, but I am here now and must face and conquer the tasks before me.
It is to that end that I write to you, Purifier. I seek your wisdom, and your council. I do more disservice to my lord should I depart without leave, disobeying orders from my superiors, but we both know putting off my atonement ever longer will not do.
I have asked for a leave of absence, and been denied. When my service is extended ( a situation beyond my control) I will seek another leave of absence. However, I would hope that your recommendation accompanying my request, would perhaps be persuasive enough to accomplish this task.
Your wisdom in this manner would be much appreciated.
Lord Vash Ourven, Ascendant of the Church of Chardun